I feel like I've been doing these entries a lot lately but this is serious - I don't see how anything else could POSSIBLY go wrong in my life. Even a psychiatrist says I'm going through hell. I'm just clinging to the hope that somewhere down the line this is actually going to make me stronger because at the moment it's just turning me into a mentally disturbed mess. Four months ago I wouldn't have believed anyone if they would have told me that this is what my life would have come to. I only pray that somewhere down the line things might look up, because at the moment it's hard to imagine how they could. Everyone has times like this but I'm not suited to it. I can't actually write anymore, I just hope that at some point in the near future, things won't be like this.